What I do when I feel unsupported
The greatest lesson I have come to realize and accept with this, is that support has many faces.
I’m going to keep it real…
I have gone through spurts of feeling like I am unsupported from those whom I feel should be. The reality is, whenever I found myself at this place I was looking at things from one dimension. I know i’m not the only one who has fallen victim to this.
The greatest lesson I have come to realize and accept with this, is that support has many faces. Although, you may tell people what they can do to support you and what you need most; there is no guarantee that they will hear and heed your requests.
Instead, we need to change our perspective of how we view what support is. Support is not always financial help. Support can be in the form of:
Checking in on you
Positive affirmations and confirmations
Sharing your products or business with others
Helping your produce your product
By looking at the different ways support can show up, we are able to change our mindset from the thoughts of lacking, to the attitude of abundance. It is my hopes that we all find support in the places we least expect it…. and most of all… NEVER GIVE UP!
PEACE AND LOVE FAMILY!
I have a confession...
After multiple sexual assaults, emotional abuse, and physical neglect, I was seriously depressed by the time I hit high school….
I have a confession…
If it wasn’t for therapy, I wouldn’t be alive today. Between the years of 2005-2009 I had active thoughts of suicide, and attempted in 2005 by the way of medication overdose.
I woke up crying; It failed...
To this day, I dread taking medication and try more holistic approaches before popping a pill. I hadn’t realized how much I had been affected by the various forms of trauma I’d been exposed to, all by the age of 13. After multiple sexual assaults, emotional abuse, and physical neglect, I was seriously depressed by the time I hit high school.
I hid it well...
Behind the smiles, laughs, and humor that seemed to keep people laughing; I hated my life. Do you know what it feels like to spend most of your life feeling lonely? Although I moved with my dad, escaping the trauma and hurt of years before, I was more depressed than before.
I went to a school where I had no relatives… honestly, I am the cousin in the family that had no one in her age range near. I tried to cling to my older cousins and “play cousins” but it always felt like they didn’t want me around. If it wasn’t for my best friend Monica, I honestly don’t know how I would’ve transitioned. We had known each other for years, because her family stayed around the corner from my grandma. Whenever I went to visit my dad in the summers and holidays we would play, ride our bikes, etc.
It was very hard. I felt rejected. I felt lonely. I felt unworthy.
I’m crying as I write this, because I’ve only shared my story in snippets with different people… The only person with the full story, is my therapist back in Michigan. Vulnerability is hard. It is still something I battle with completely, even though I’ve become much better at it. It can be difficult for many people to share their story because of fear of being labeled or rejected. My personal fear, was/is that some people will now forever “label me” and many assumptions will follow. I no longer care.
Turning 30 has changed my entire perspective of life.
The hardest part about transitioning from the place of “victim” to “survivor” is acknowledging your personal truth and allowing it to grow you. I am no longer suicidal, but I believe therapy is something important to keep as a preventative of breaking down. If you feel you need someone; I am here to listen… but pleeeeease….
Don’t be afraid to go to therapy. It can save a life.